littlenicci

about cutting, is seeing your blood run and kinda feel alive

just had smart ones microwave menu

chicken mirabella
280 f....cals

fat

hi
just bad weekend
not really ed related , read and comment , maybe someone feels the same way

I think i have the BURN OUT SYMPTOM. I am tired all the time, can barley make it through work, binge , cry and i cant sleep.
I also noticed that i keep keeping cramps in my legs(well, i know, lack of nutrition) and my arm falls asleep.
i sooo wanna take sick leave just to recover and take some time and do a detox fast but I feel bad taking of work. stupid me:(

well i cut .live sucks but down to 123
:)

just ate green been cassarole and purged :( day sucks
someone ran over my baby kitten last night:(, i went out , got drunk and ate, I way 1,5 lbs more and i just got payed and almost broke again:(and still fat

this pisses me off, I am so dreading to go to work to hear the little bitches whine about unimportent stuff.
Never really had problems with any of my co workers before but latley i guess they just looking for some idiot that takes all the blame for what goes wrong.bla bla bla

I know this gonna be stressful today, and I am soooo afraid i am gonna go to md(around the corner) and binge and then feel even worse..

AHHHHH
wish I just stand up to them and tell em off but then iam afraid that i ll loose my job.I never have problems to speak my mind , just at work..
I hate it
How do u all handle superbitchy wannabe´s at work??

today i had

coffee
lunch : salad with tuna
Snack:9 little chocolate
Dinner.FEW mushrooms with bit onion and 1 egg and some mozzarella cheese.
some wine:))

depressed
Eintrag: hi everyone
so i ve been watching this com. for like 2 months.
I ve finally decided to post cause there is no one else I really can share my feeling with.
i ve been on lj before like 2yrs ago .My Ed is Mia . Off and on id say( 8yrs now) but latley I developed it like "Full Blown!!"as some might say.
Anyway I do like that i ve lost like 8 pounds within the last two months but what becomes crazy now is my mood.
Somedays I just wanna wake up and be "normal" , enjoy dinner with friends or have a healthy self image.
Well my Stats are
Height 5.7
HW 152 lbs
Lw 125 lbs
cw 124 lbs
GW 112 lbs

depressed [Aug. 17th, 2006|07:34 pm]
hi everyone
so i ve been watching this com. for like 2 months.
I ve finally decided to post cause there is no one else I really can share my feeling with.
i ve been on lj before like 2yrs ago .My Ed is Mia . Off and on id say( 8yrs now) but latley I developed it like "Full Blown!!"as some might say.
Anyway I do like that i ve lost like 8 pounds within the last two months but what becomes crazy now is my mood.
Somedays I just wanna wake up and be "normal" , enjoy dinner with friends or have a healthy self image.
Well my Stats are
Height 5.7
HW 152 lbs
Lw 125 lbs
cw 124 lbs
GW 112 lbs

hi everyone
so i ve been watching this com. for like 2 months.
I ve finally decided to post cause there is no one else I really can share my feeling with.
i ve been on lj before like 2yrs ago .My Ed is Mia . Off and on id say( 8yrs now) but latley I developed it like "Full Blown!!"as some might say.
Anyway I do like that i ve lost like 8 pounds within the last two months but what becomes crazy now is my mood.
Somedays I just wanna wake up and be "normal" , enjoy dinner with friends or have a healthy self image.
Well my Stats are
Height 5.7
HW 152 lbs
Lw 125 lbs
cw 124 lbs
GW 112 lbs